RETIREMENT

I was thinking about "retirement" that I heard from someone on tv.
At that time,
I was folding family's clothes.
I thought that What do My future?

Least I think I have been live my life harldy.
But As of now  I feel insignificant and It's true.
I don't know why I becamed like this.

Really something make me worried.

From now on
We can live a long time least up to 80 to 100 years old.
We have lots of days to live in future.

It can be that's getting really bad or blessing.

Coming soon ~

It can be  slow down or quickly for someone.

Use caution!!!

OH MY GOSH!!!

Already my husband retired from company and
 my husband is running small factory.
But More and more it is decreasing income.
The situation get worse and worse.

I am not expressing our economic  problem, but I am truely worried about our difficulty.

Result of now is a continuous's past's fruits.
I don't know that what makes  did I do or what  did I wrong?

But
I can speak to myself that did my best my life.
Even though I couldn't say I did well~

fortunally, I am knowing that I have to something.

But
The thing was that I don't know that what should i do.

Do you want me to disapointed myself?
I know  you  don't want to say that  I disappointed myself.
Moreover you want  me to   never give up something.
I know too rather you want to say me that It's worth don't giving up whatever.

In truely
This is the first time I 've been experienceing my diffcult life.
No,
It had been difficult but I don't know I couldn't feel something.

Suddenly
I miss my husband.
He is watching TV without thought.
No
He might already had cried about  terrible.
He might already solved about difficulty.
Rather It might my hope that want solve by my husband.

Actually
I  don't mean to hurt their feelings that is reading my diary.
Just
I wanted to tell about something.

FROM NOW ON~

Seriously
Have a make try to think out life with my husband.
We are getting in the a same boat , we are companion forever.
We are not an  enemy.

If i say honestly,

I used to think  when we had a big fight, my husband and I are enemy.

But
We have to get over  this difficulty together.
It's easy solving it, if we are shareing difficulty together.

Luckily
We are loving each other, healthy, have good family who is cheering up us. even they are respecting to father too.

Just
we are a little short money.
When we want to buy or eat  something,
we can't buy or eat something so we can feel uncomfortable.

If we could have save for lots of money when we were newly life~?

At that time we were rich, so we had spent lots of money without realizing.

When we were learning  that we have a tiny money,
we  have a small house and we have been living while worrying next days.

But we don't blame each other and we don't regret it, too.

Just I am sad that  time passed.

I think while I am writing a diary.

If I can get back the my youth of my past
It seems I will put lots of money together.

As of now,
I will start my life challanging again.

If we can have hope, we can demonstrate that we are still  enthusiastic and deligent.

We are a little elderly couple.

Elderly  has wise.
And they  don't give up whatever.
Finally
The elderly  become real winner like  elderly of all of the world.
(It is a true and you will  get to know when you get older why elderly was told "true winner.")

It is  a like dust tiny worry from God-given.

We will get wise by through God.
That's why we are true winner.
No,I want true winner.

And
When I leave to heaven, I will say like this to everyone I know,
It has been happy and warm in world and
it's worth living at there.

Last sentence  is that I might want to say to my granddaughter.
       
As soon as I was all finish my write a diary,
suddenly
I get hungry so i  try to eat egg-fried.

It is 11:56 pm now.
Sweet dream.
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